Happy Thanksgiving everyone! I know I’m a bit late (at least for the people on eastern hemisphere). I hope everyone stuffed themselves and enjoyed their day off. ^^ Sorry for not blogging for a couple days. But so much happened and I will blog about it now.

Wednesday during seminar, we had an audition for us concert band students to try out to join the full orchestra. We got Strings orchestra here, and Mrs. Lee wanted to combined several band students into strings and play Sleigh Ride together. Well at first she wanted to only take 2 saxes (one first and one second) but there were 3 of us that tried out. I guess since she didn’t want it to seem like she was doing the act of favoritism so she let me be in it. Nevertheless I am happy. ^^ I like playing that song. It’s quite a challenge for me. But whatever so Brandon and Min are first and I be second. I don’t mind being second for this. I know I cannot even bother to compete with those two, so yeah. I’m just happy I made it. ^^ So for the Holiday concert, I’m gonna be in three programme. Jazz Band, Full Orchestra, and of course Concert Band. Not bad for my last holiday concert eh? ^^

Welp dad picked me up at about 5 after school, and we went to the movie rental. I rented three spanking new dvds. Woot! They are The Time Machine, Grease, and Sunshine. I watched Grease Wednesday night. Oh man. Despite the fact how the plot moved too quickly, I loved it. The singing, the dancing, the humour, the romance, the whole oldies thing! Oh and not to mention John Travolta is my new concubine XD Haha. But I loved it. The energy and the lightness of the film captivated me. And those three thunderbirds are so stupid. The ones who always did the stooges thing. But damn Olivia and John can sing. I want to sing like that! *sings* Tell me more, tell me more … Hopelessly Devoted to youuuuu

Well Thursday came along and I watched The Time Machine. The one with Guy Pearce. I liked it and all, but I wished they stuck more to the story in the actual book. I was expecting the Eloi to be all pale skined with blond hair. Not some Malaysian looking people! But yeah. However despite it’s … booboos, I quite enjoyed it. It kept me interested. The special effects when the time machine was in use was cool. I liked how they fast forwarded into the future. It made me feel as if I was in the time machine. I liked Guy Pearce, but I thought he was much better in Memento. Ohwell.

After that I cleaned my room. Yes praise me. I cleaned my room. Well not thoroughly, but it actually has a floor now! XD I’ll clean it thoroughly during winter break. I got more days off then. So until then I’ll live in a rather dusty room. XD Then after doing that, around 4ish relatives started coming over. Our dinner wasn’t ready till about 6. Ate the usual, turkey, mash potatoes, stuffings, gravy, and etc etc. And of couse ONLY in Korea will you find people eating kimchi or other Korean foods with any American Holiday Food. *roll eyes* Then again I had a little kimchi myself too so yeah. XD Strange how I’m like into kimchi now. Ohwell!

Then to escaped the crowdedness of my house (11 people sure is crowded for me), I went to Jen and we went to cafe and Karaoke as usual. XD We had fun. We were discussing Nostradamus and other philosophical crap over at the cafe. And at No Rae, we sang ourselves silly. We sang ‘Summer Nights’ from Grease XD. Too bad they didn’t have ‘Hopelessy Devoted’. Oh well. But we sang our usuals and just had fun. Then we parted at 10, and I came home and watched Sunshine. And … I loved Sunshine, but it was TOO LONG. Sitting on my butt for three hours was painful. But oh man. Ralph Fiennes was excellent there. However the movie got a bit repetitive here and there. The saying “History repeats itself”, is a perfect theme for that movie! And damn I thought King Arthur had a dysfunctional family and now the Sonnenschein family is even more dsyfunctional! But yeah it was poignant at some parts and dragging. But me being biased toward Ralph, enjoyed staring at his sexy body for 3 hours. Depsite my poor butt. XD I want to get that and Grease as my own copies now. Must ask daddy!

So yes that’s my Turkey Day. And I got today off so yay!! More time to relax and party!

Thanks for the comments below. I wish I could get out, but I can’t. At least not till January when the semeseter is over. But ohwell. Thanks for the comments. Made me feel better. ^_^

And just for my sake, for memories, it’s SNOWING!! Very little though, but it’s still pretty. Feels all magical and fantasyness. Whee! ^_^ I wonder if it will turn into a blizzard. And then no school tomorrow! But fat chance of that happening. Boo. But nevertheless I’m glad I’m seeing snow. People told me it snowed couple weeks ago, but I didn’t see it cuz I was asleep. And now I see it! ^_^ First snow of winter for me! Whee!

You know what? I hate useless jobs. I absolutely hate it. I feel like crying and all that shit. I got the most unsupported parents ever. I work in a very uncomfortable place and it just sucks. I feel like a useless high school student working there now. I hate ACS. I hate how they treat me now. I hate how they do not recognise my skills anymore. I just despise it. It’s like summer hire all over again. Damn I suck.

Last year at ACS, I was recognised as their “graphic person”. I was comfortable with everyone there (minus one lady) and when Mr. Carter wasn’t there, they’d open the door up for me. Last year everyone oohed and ahed over my shit. The atmosphere was comfortable and I actually had a computer to work on for whatever I needed to do. This year, the computer is either being used by someone else or whatever. And not to mention, now I have to ask my supervisor or someone to log in the pc for me. Last year I didn’t have to do that. Now I do. I feel like a lowly student now.

Granted, most of the people that used to work there all moved, and the staff is half-replaced now. So that might be it. That they don’t know me. But the other half just pretty much ignores me still. Also I used to volunteer there 2-3 days after school a week. Maybe now that I ain’t volunteering there, they just treat me like a “student”. But too me it is a form of volunteering. I was persistent about working there. I came to Mr. Carter before school even started. He wasn’t there. Then during the first week of school, I went there during lunch like several times and he wasn’t there. I kept persisting. I wanted to work there. I could have easily chosen another place to work, or not even take CWE. I could have easily done that. But no, I WANTED to work there. So that volunteering thing is a pretty pathetic excuse and that is my dad’s reason. Spare me pathetic excuses.

You know what just made me realised that I was downgraded to a student there? When my supervisor told me to dust the shelves. It’s like living summer hire all over agian. I felt like crying then. Granted I know that the janitor crew got cut down, so now they have to do all that shit, but still. Dammit. I didn’t get my designing skills for this kind of shit. I didn’t go to school to learn how to use Powerpoint, Word and whatever to clean something. I didn’t spend all my free time trying to improve my designing skills. I could have easily said fuck it, and become a couch potato and watch useless tv shows. I ain’t taking all this computer classes for nothing. True I need to take it cuz I need a full school days, but if they offered more good and useful computer classes, I’d be taking more of those.

Each time when I was asked to clean something during summer hire, you know what I felt? I felt useless. I felt like a fucking slave. I felt like that being a janitor is my true job. I felt like CRYING each time I got asked. And even today I wanted to cry. I just hate it. Granted I got PAID during summer hire to do cleaning and to most people, it’s easy money. But I don’t want that. I want a job where I can put my skills to work. I want a job where I feel accompolished and cleaning something up, when an 8 year-old can do the same isn’t an accomplishment. Call me stupid or weird for all I care. I don’t give a damn. I don’t want a job like that. And if that’s how I’m gonna be treated when I am not even being paid, then I do not even want to know how I’ll be treated when I do get a paying job. Then again I already experienced that so whatever. Screw it.

I’m a willing worker. I might not have much experience like some people, but by gods, I know how to work and I got good customer service as long as I know my material. I might seem lazy, but see me at work, I’m dead serious. I am not gonna waste away like that. I REFUSE to be a janitor to someone when I got higher skills than that. I used to look forward to each time I go to ACS. Now I dread it. Dread it like my summer hire job and dread it like when I go to school. I thought I used to be something good there. Someone that’s at least noticed for her skills. I see people that makes their own flyers for their department and it suck ass. No one comes to me and ask. And they should know that I got good designing skills since I’ve worked there for 2 years. The people that are still there could recommend me to the ones that are new. They don’t even do that. Granted I work only 1 hour and a half every other day, but if I have to, I will come in after school and finish it up.

Damn it. And don’t tell me to be realistic people. I AM being realistic now. Do not tell me that most people don’t rely on high school students. They fucking should at least rely on some of them that got the potential. Do not tell me that high school students got no experience whatsoever, when some do. I know that 90% of the CWE students DO jack at their work site. They are poor excuses for supervisors. They say on their papers that they expect the people to learn this and that. Well I ALREADY know my basic working skills. I already know my shit and I ain’t gonna let it go to waste.

I found this rather interesting quote from this Cybrpunk. I know it’s insulting in some ways, but I have to admit, it got me to crack up laughing and it does fit guys I can think of. And no most of my guy friends don’t fit in here, unless they act like dork heads. Ie: Charles. XD If you ever read this, you know I love you Charles.

“The male is an incomplete female chromosome. In other words the male is a walking abortion; aborted at the gene stage. To be male is to be deficient, emotionally limited; maleness is a deficiency disease and males are emotional cripples” - Valerie Solanos

*snickers* Ladies you gotta agree, the first part make sense if you know how the XX and XY chromosomes look like. Sorry Cybrpunk, but the first part killed me when I read it. I was laughing too hard. However the last part wasn’t neccessary. I agree that part is cruel. But hey it does fit some guys!! Not all, but some. *nods* But really I wanted to share it with you people that read this blog. *shrugs* Thought it’d be interesting. Oh well. I’m outs now. Nothing else to blog about really. Actually I do have something, but I feel like blogging that at my private blog. Later ya’ll.

Yes. Myung-Dong trip #2. Today was Jenny’s birthday. Happy Birthday! Well I met her at ACS when I was at CWE and we chatted. She wanted to go to Lotte World or something. We agreed to meet after school. Met at Popeyes and I had to go to the dinky Credit Union to withdraw some money. I withdrew 20 bucks and exchanged it and got 23,000 won. Added to that was 13,000 won I had left over from yesterday.

Well we originally planned to go to Dongdaemun Market, do a place called “Doota”. Now mind you I call that place “Dooty” now. My new name for that place. Well unfortunately for us, Dooty was closed. Dammit x_x;; So we walked around trying to find a Starshot. Funny how one of the best market area, GOT none there. If there were any, we COULD not find any. Dammit. So we just went to Myung-Dong.

Well needless to say Myung-Dong was … a hassle. I couldn’t find the place where Jen went yesterday. So after walking around for an hour, we finally found one (after asking a tourist information desk) and just took it. It cost 19,000 for both of us. x_x;; Jen’s were 13,000. Then again we got more pics then she. Oh well. But yeah, we took them and here are the results:

Jenny and Tara #1
Jenny and Tara #2
Solo Tara
Solo Jenny

The only pic I like up there is Solo Jenny and the first one. The others I came out crappily. But oh well. I tried my best at holding my damn expression still. *shrugs* But I like it. The background was nice. Well while the starshots were being produced, we went and ate. The place we first went to sucked ass. All they had was mandu and noodles. And it was expensive and not worth it. Then later we went to a Japanese Fusion Restaurant and shared Bibim Bab. Then I bought a scarf. I lost my pink one in the subway bathroom. >_< ;; But instead I got a nice black one for 5,000! ^^ So I'm happy. Good thing I bought that one because the one I found before was 25,0000. Let's just say I nearly died of a heart attack at the price. >_< ;;

After we got our photos, we found a nice jewerly store. We both got a ring for 4,000 each. It’s nice! ^_^ Hee! And it’s the same one. Haha ^^ It’s cheap, but it’s worth it. ^^ Well that was my lovely day and I AM NOT going shopping to those places again for a long time. At least I’ll try. My poor feet hurts. X_x;;